This teen girl’s response to the DFTBA sexual abuse scandal is out of this world and needs to be watched and thought about and discussed.
This is a 16-year-old girl. Her video gave me CHILLS.
She laid down straight facts. ALL youtubers and youtube watchers and youtube content creators need to BURN THIS GIRL’S WORDS INTO THEIR MINDS AT ALL TIMES.
Have you ever seen yourself
when you were caught not realizing you were being watched?
I have just had the extreme pleasure of watching some awesome 3 second videos of me and some girlfriends in the woods actin the fool.
Will post soon.
because I’m cute as hell up in the woods.
trigger warning, though a positive post
in other news
i hate my period. it makes me crazy.
I’m overwhelmed by my weight.
I’m overwhelmed at the thought of trying to lose weight.
I’m back with a vengance, lol
how no matter how much things change, my tumblr is still here.
Getting back on track is hard.
I’ll be painfully, embarrassingly candid: I’ve gained like 15 pounds over the last year.
Ugh. I do not feel good at 160. At all.
But finding the balance is hard. The balance among paying enough attention to what I eat to make good choices, paying too much attention to what I eat, and paying no attention to what I eat.
For the past few months, I’ve been in the last category. I call it the “just fuck it” approach to eating. And I should know by now that it just doesn’t work. I inevitably balloon back up to the 160s, which just do not look good on me. This gets me down. Real down.
I have the problem, though, of when coming off of the “just fuck it” period to overcompensate. I start doing really stupid things like ordering my coffee with sugar free syrup (I just took a sip. It’s really awful. Luckily, I have a fancy gold card so I can get a free refill and ask them to make it with regular syrup). I start looking at calories instead of nutrition. I start getting consumed again.
What adds to my consumption is the fact that I have two full time jobs. I’m working at the hotel front desk and teaching four sections of 1101. That doesn’t leave a lot of time for the gym, or much of any exercise.
Anywho, this post is mostly just to get my thoughts out so I can start to think about them a little straighter. And to admit that I’m struggling.
idk how to reply to replies anymore.
I haven’t been here in a hot minute.
I keep thinking, ooh, I should go post on tumblr!
and then I don’t. Partly because I’m afraid of wasting a lot of time like I am wont to do. But also partly because I’m kinda struggling, and I have a hard time admitting that.
I haven’t been to the gym since before the wedding—things got stressful the week before and I just couldn’t make time. Since the wedding, I’ve been trying to move from the hotel breakfast to the front desk (which I succeeded in finally!!), get a job teaching in the fall (which I also did!!), and start working on graphic design more (which I am kinda doing).
I’ve had things going on, sure, so maybe that’s a decent reason for not getting back into the gym or being any kind of active at all, but it’s not an excuse for the destructive eating behaviors. I’ve been binging. A lot. And it feels like I’m doing it to punish myself for not eating well or going to the gym like I want to, which probably sounds very crazy. Like, I’m punishing myself with binges because I’m not just making the choice to go to the gym. I can’t really explain it well. All I know is that it has to stop.
I was feeling my best when I was here, updating people on what I’ve been up to eating and working out wise. I need that again. I need this blog again, I need you all again, and I won’t forget that again.
I’M GETTING MARRIED IN TWO DAYS!
Ah! I freaking love this! Thank you Ink!! This is going to be mine and Stuart’s guestbook. I’m going to print it on a large poster and everyone is going to sign around us.